my home is in empty spaces.

Pointless entry.

I was talking to N yesterday after exam, and she said my current msn nick is not something she would expect from me. =) Then we started talking about what a well-constructed song Lose My Breath is. And I found the word I was looking for only much later, after I went home. Melisma!

Also met WW in the canteen, hadn't seen her for some time.

"What is a placebo? Discuss the role of the placebo in clinical trials."

Google. Define:placebo. Read.

QED.

So I've finally listened to the original Long2 Juan3 Feng1 after about nine months, and I realise that the group did a wonderful rendition of it, better than the original. =) Impressive enough while I was listening to their version.... but they took a badly sung song and made it good.

Die-hard romantics, will.

Die. Hard. I mean.

Am not like that anymore. =)

I am in school.

Now, before you jump to any strange conclusions about why I am back here instead of sleeping/shopping/bowling/cycling/ice-skating/meeting people/staring into space..........................., um, I am staring into space, my version thereof. I'm actually taking care of all the little things that I'd pushed to the time after THESIS, such as graduation ceremony details, examination location details, study plan for this time till examinations, clearing my email inbox of all unnecessary stuff, returning library books, and, yes, blogging a proper entry. And I'd already done enough sleeping yesterday, so that's fine.

By the way, for the nus ppl reading this, I still have 49 pages of print quota (b&w only, sorry), so if you have anything you desperately need to print, you can send it to me.

Yesterday I had a thoroughly peculiar nightmare. I dreamt that someone familiar was trying to kill me, and that I was actually letting him (????) because I trusted him. I have no idea what to make of this cautionary dream.

As of today,

6.15 a.m.: Finished the thing.
8.15 a.m.: Wondering where to print the thing in school for submission. No sleep.
8.30 a.m.: Friend says will help me print. Went to Med Lib to ask about hard-cover binding, after asking went to sit at one of the chairs, and promptly fell asleep.
10.30 a.m.: Woke somewhat disoriented in Med Lib. Promptly dozed in situ another 5 minutes. Moved out to wooden benches outside Med Lib. Fell asleep again.
10.50 a.m.: Awoke, sort of. Asked friend if any problems with the printing. No problems.

Now in lab waiting for express document delivery service. =)

12.00 noon: Thing deadline.

I've finished the THESIS. 64 page double-spaced monster. 64 pages not including the references lah. And pdfed it too. Now to print and hand it in.

I now know why my parents have been giving me annoyed looks for the past few days. I've been doing the no-meals-at-home-7-days-in-sch thing for a month now. Ah.

Update on the thumb drive, the poster and CRC. :-)

So I went back all the way from CRC to my lab where my laptop was comfortably chilling out, copied my files over from the thumb drive to my laptop, and reformatted the drive to remove its password protection.

Then I copied my poster back over to the thumb drive and went down to CRC again.

Where I sweetly apologized and explained about the password protection screwing things up, and the lady there was very polite and efficient in return too. So all is well.

This is one of the most bitter rants I've let loose in a long time. Be amply forewarned.

Imation thumb drives.

Be warned that if yours is currently in password-protected form, you will have to REFORMAT the entire drive to unprotect your files for printing with other computers. This erases all your files, so back it all up before unprotecting it.

Such as my second Honours poster. CRC has really, really bad service, you know. It worked fine when my first poster was in unprotected form and sent there for printing. Now that my second poster was protected, I got accused of not copying the file over to the thumb drive simply because their computer does not have an auto-login screen for Imation drives and they've never heard of protected thumb drives.

So I ran the Setup file on the drive, which was the only thing showing there, and got sworn at for taking up their precious time. After the Setup file ran, nothing happened, because the computer there still could not produce an auto-login screen. I got told to go back and copy the file over to my thumb drive, with a scathing pitiful look thrown at me by the lady at CRC.

Arghs.

If I weren't so tired, I would print my poster somewhere else.

Cryptic post coming up.

The whole truth, or nothing but the truth?

The whole unpleasant truth, or a nice non-comprehensive partial truth that in the end is a lie because its niceness distorts?

Fools.

This might puzzle and horrify a lot of people (it puzzles me too. few things horrify me anymore), but sometimes I do miss Brandon terribly. We're talking here about the partial construct mirage Brandon whom I fell in love with, a long time ago. A particularly geeky turn of phrase, that aura of utter unselfconscious aloneness......... these are traits I have too. sometimes. And while it's not so rare for me now to find people whom I haven't grown up with who have those same traits, it used to be that I could hardly meet anyone who could study quietly with me at the same table for hours and hours and feel perfectly fine about that sort of companionship over dinner later when it was time to be talking.

As a matter of fact, it was this particularly geeky turn of phrase that got me reminiscing on this beautiful quiet Sunday sunny afternoon in the old brown part of school where I usually am.

"The capability of an inverse-docking approach in identifying potential protein targets of a small molecule is constrained by the relatively limited number of available protein 3D structures. This is particularly true for membrane-bound receptor proteins that are key therapeutic and toxicity targets for a variety of diseases or symptoms. This problem can be partially alleviated by structural information generated from rapid progress in high-throughput X-ray crystallography of protein structures and in the development of new structural determination methods." Proteins 43:217-226 (2001).

So geeky =)

My yandao's a geek too. I seem to prefer those. =p

The sun is so beautiful today, I feel like I'm travelling in Italy in summer again.

How could I have spent 10 hours typing only my references? Eeeks.

But now that that's done, I suddenly feel reinvigorated enough to write something of my own in The Thesis. Yippees.

I want chocolate

;) now you know why I like the yandao that I like. And stop calling him boring, all of you! =)

Your dating personality profile: Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. Sensual - You are not particularly shy when it comes to your sexuality. You know what you like and do not feel inhibited. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.

Your date match profile: Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Traditional - You need someone who is a bit old-fashioned. A person with traditional values and beliefs will perfectly compliment your lifestyle. Intellectual - You seek out intelligence. Idle chit-chat is not what you are after. You prefer your date who can stimulate your mind.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Athletic 2. Sensual 3. Liberal 4. Intellectual 5. Outgoing 6. Wealthy/Ambitious 7. Adventurous 8. Practical 9. Traditional 10. Big-Hearted

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Practical 2. Traditional 3. Intellectual 4. Athletic 5. Adventurous 6. Conservative 7. Big-Hearted 8. Outgoing 9. Sensual 10. Stylish

Take the Online Dating Personality Quiz at Dating Diversions

I suddenly have a sinking feeling in my stomach as I realise that assignments done when half-asleep need to be looked over before submission.

Last assignment cleared. Thesis draft now. Yippee.

I finished yet another assignment last night, and am scheduled to clear off one more today.

The one today will have to be more or less shoved into a state of clearance by my beautiful wonderful studious nitpicking persistent hardworking charming wonderful (I said that already?) smart yandao project partner, because I currently have the inert mind of a tired potato. Ah. Although I've done all the readings and should be able to answer any questions my beautiful wonderful etc.. partner has on the work substance. But actually motivating myself to get off the (figurative) couch and do the work now is just too much for me.

I am scheduled to meet said yandao in 1.5 hours' time. I shall sleep in the library meanwhile.

I found the smiley face that was missing from my pencilbox! =)

Sigh, he is busy.

And I am too free today, have 1 1/2 hours to do a bit of things before going somewhere. Only 1 1/2 hours. Hmmm.